“I lean to advocate the rituals of a long tall sip of brain chemicals.  Something like alcohol & cocaine without a hangover or nose sniffing.”

-Heather Deogracia

Admitting the fact that I take a very strong concoction of prescriptions for BiPolar I disorder, I have needed to be “drunk” every breakfast and dinner time to function.  To compare the drinking habits of an alcoholic, I also feel the cravings of chemicals just to be normal and to keep away from deathly sick symptoms.  This daily dose of a cute pile of pills taken at 4 a.m. and 9 p.m. does save my life from law enforcement, personal relationships and even the mental ward facilities.

“Drunk for Life”  Pen & Ink Markers  8.5 x 11  $80 a print

To be honest, my mother Sussana and father Charles met and fell in love while in the Alcoholic Anonymous.  This very fact makes me say “my oh my” did I get the genetics of a DNA nightmare.  From my medical science background, I do vividly remember the splicing fragments of DNA from different sources and then introducing the recipient host cell.  This genetic recombination cell method is engineered for all of my organs that function to keep my blood sack alive.

The four major categories that are ingrained in the stitching of my brain hemispheres include a mood stabilizer, anti-depressant, anti-psychotic and above all else, the power of concentration and focus.  My magic of six prescriptions a day has kept me out of a mental ward for over six years now.  Damn if I don’t down them in one gulp.  The recovery I have felt has finally returned the very old me from 25 years ago when I used to have a crazy almost dangerous addiction to creating art and reading a massive amount of text books.  My recovery is based on the drug Ritalin.

Rittt-ahhh-lynn.  Ahhhhh.  My meditation word that repeats over me like a long chant and trance when I look back on how I breathe soft and long for it.  Maybe I even use the word of my spiritual savior because it saved my life like a miracle of a higher power.  The next week after I started it, I started to draw entire focused detailed drawings and never looked back.  40 exhibits and counting under my belt, this history and track record of results must be praised.  Thank you Lord for linking that drug together that compares to the snorts of cocaine.

“I enjoy the beauty of insanity.  I have grown 4,000% since I started Ritalin and the art I make is a reflection of controlled crazy.”

-Heather Deogracia

Webmd.com states “In large doses — greater than what is typically prescribed for ADHD — Ritalin does have effects similar to those of cocaine. However, researchers have found marked differences between the two drugs. One of the factors that lead to addiction and drug abuse is how quickly a drug raises dopamine levels.  The faster dopamine levels go up, the greater the potential for abuse. One researcher found that Ritalin takes about an hour to raise dopamine levels in the brain, compared to only seconds with inhaled cocaine.

I am sure now as you read all this information that I tend to sound like a drugged out junkie for all to read on my blog.  This picture illustration may describe what I feel like with my eyes closed.  There is a figure with a test tube in hand with a blow out from the skull.  I take medications to rescue myself from a death sentence.

Does taking stimulants for ADHD lead to substance abuse problems?  Now that is a strong question to ask me.  I abuse substances.  The very finest government pays a heavy amount of $ 1,300 a month for with the insurance of Medicare and drug assistance for low income people like me.  I am worth it.  It also saves the expense of a $ 1,000 a day stay in the good o’ mental ward.  I’ve not been a drug user outside of this pharmaceutical bliss so I know how good I have it now.

Formally I state that you might have gained the in sight of why I get drugged legally (safely I assure you) and from my statements.  I am a mentally entertained person without the use of alcohol and cocaine.  Yes I do thirst and yes I drink from a chemical chalice every day.  Cheers.